I have been thinking about Amnesty International, and the Peace Brigades, and lots of other people like that, out working in the trenches, for low, or even no (spiritual) wages. I have been watching you people over there, slaving away in the hot burning desert sun, trying to be righteous and good and holy, in a cruel, indifferent, dead and dying world. Well, it can seem that way when you long for something righteous to happen. Yes, I have watched you for years, completely helpless, my hands tied, my lips sealed with tape. I have watched your terrible struggles, shared, in my imagination, in your bouts of extremely painful black hopeless despair, and all the other sufferings and trials and ordeals that are all a part of being people like the ones you are.
Now as for myself, I was never any good for anything. Put me into a room with people who don't know Yahweh, which is every single solitary person I ever ever seem to meet, and immediately I go into mourning for them. They know nothing, and even worse they have been so trampled down and beaten down so many times, that it is literally impossible for them to ever really believe in anything at all, anymore. You see, if you are like me, and you are going to wait for Yahweh, you are going to wait in complete solitude, and keep a lonely one person vigil.
Yes, they would be afraid those lost, wandering sheep. Don't promise them a good shepherd and peaceful rest on rolling meadows. They don't get their hearts up in hope for anything or anyone, and that would include me. And given how much it hurts, and how much more it can still hurt, I guess I cannot blame anyone for deserting a prophet of Yahweh, on a Yahweh watch. Most people have been so brutalized, and have never known anything but ruthless prickery in response to their ‘prayers' to those who sit in high places, with great power and authority. Their minds are now ruthlessly conditioned, by constant ruthless prickery, and now they are even completely unable to prayer to God, another authority figure, and, to them, just another brick wall to speak to, just another really powerful extremely ruthless prick. That is all they know. They have no hopes that I can see, and it is impossible to give them any, no matter how much you tell them or how much you try to do, or how much you say, or even (a clue from God here) how well you say it - anything and everything you might ever ever try to do for such people will in every case be doomed to dismal failure. They just cannot have faith. They cannot believe. And they hurt to much and have been trampled to many times to ever be able to put even a little trust in someone like me.
Cuts to close to home. Hurts to much. People have waited to long for gods who never hear prayers, have lived to long with a cast iron sky over their heads, while ruthless prickery and cruel sufferings surround them.
Now getting back to Amnesty International, the peace Brigades, and all other such activists for the human race, tell me, you people, would it do any good whatsoever to attempt to scream at you and severely bawl you out? Maybe I could inform you of just what searing pain it causes me everyday just to think about your faithless suffering hearts, and at the same time, to know the beautiful truth, and find out that my pearl of great price is more worthless than a lump of turd in such a beaten down hopelessly despairing place like this one. It is so frustrating and mind numbingly painful when you people do that turning deaf and unbelieving thing on someone like me, who has the terrible terrible painful secret that can never ever be shared. You will suffer, I will suffer, well, let's all just suffer together, shall we. And while we will suffer, as a matter of course, let us also be sure to suffer and suffer needless painful suffering that really doesn't have to be (if only you could hear me and believe and understand what I have been wanting to tell someone here for so very long). Yes, Amnesty International, you go suffer needlessly and just cause me agonies watching you do it, too, and the same with all the rest of you.
Would it do any good to thoroughly scold the righteous and the good? If I rub my sufferings into your face, those stinking needless hopeless sufferings, would it make you really stop and think. Is there any way that I could ever do something that would encourage you to trust me, and not because I am out to get anything from you for myself, but simply for your own good. Why stay ignorant, when you can know the truth (and you really can today, because there is a prophet of Yahweh on the planet.)
Now does it help to thoroughly scold and bawl out the righteous and the good. I have tried just about everything else, and nothing else worked, so why not try one last damn thing that doesn't work either and just tie into you damned bastards, the good and the righteous of this planet.
Now I am a prophet of Yahweh, and my job is to clear a path for Yahweh. I do not understand what I am doing or what is supposed to happen next or anything else like that really. My job is simply to clear a path for Yahweh. Now there are two possible scenarios here. One, Yahweh appears, and everyone thinks its the christian god and that composite jesus christ figure, just like what happened to a whole city of people in Saskatoon, last Easter. Now Saskatoon, tell me the truth, was that not the most thoroughly disgusting experience you have ever had. I was watching. No rocks and trees were singing out. So under this scenario people get punished for having a false god, by living for a few days, or a week or two, under the boots of that christian god and the lord jesus composite figure. Think about the horror. I was thinking last night that I lived with that thing for decades, and now, because of what happened to me, they will only have to live with that terrible terrible news of the coming of the christian god for maybe a few days, you know, until they can read my stuff, in which case they should be fixed. So it was worth it, what happened to me...one life crushed and destroyed in exchange for a planet. Of course that sinful and stupid planet will have to ‘get saved' by the christian god and the lord jesus christ at least once, just to be properly properly punished for their careless idolatrous ways, but think about how happy they will be to see me, after having had that terrible experience. Well the rocks and trees will finally start singing. Ding dong. The witch is dead.
Second scenario - the just and righteous world saving poor saving wrath of Yahweh is delayed while something is done about that stinking christian god hovering over the planet like some kind of vulture waiting for the corpse to drop. And you people want something from God, right. Well use your damned heads then, and help to drive off that buzzard, and so finally, at long last, clear a path for Yahweh to this stinking rotten planet. Notice how little I like this option. While the first option is terribly awfully cruel cruel cruel it is however fast fast fast, and there is some justice in punishing a planet for a few days with that christian god, believe me. Sometimes maybe you just have to teach people a lesson the hard way.
Well, like I said, I don't know which one of those two its going to be. I waffle. I am not much of prophet in that way. Personally, I am in favor of the fast route. In everything. You know, do the Pharoah of Egypt thing one every five minutes and get all ten of those damned things over in less than an hour. That's me. Alright. But like I said, I am no God, and perhaps as appealing as enslaving this whole stinking planet to the christian god is to someone like me, maybe it is just so awful and so cruel cruel cruel a thing to do to those people that it just breaks Yahweh's heart. Of course I did it for many many years, and when you stop to think about it, that might have broken Yahweh's heart, too, but it still happenned. Well, if it is to be the case that a more soft hearted thing happens to everyone else than what happened to me then I guess I would be at the mercy of those godlessly despairing world saving activists, the good people who long for righteousness on the planet. And a more useless and despairing bunch of sorry sorry godless losers have never probably existed before on any planet. That's right, I will just forget about that George Bush and that religious right, and just start going after the good and the righteous for a change, which you never know might actually finally get me somewhere in this place. Oh, and by the way, its not the christian god or jesus christ alright. Its Yahweh. So no need to scatter in 12 different directions everytime you see me coming alright.
Yes you good and righteous people had better start looking into that city of Saskatoon thing, and find out for yourselves, and then clear a path for Yahweh, or by God you will be getting roasted in some gruesome damn way on a website being run by a prophet of Yahweh. Ask around. There are lots of people who can tell you just how bad that can be...
Alright, let me reign it in here, because it is only Sunday morning, and I don't know what is supposed to be happening. Well, I am not much of a prophet in that way, but I am good at what I do, something even my worst opponents must respect, as I know they do. And just think, my worst opponents, well in between ignoring you and severely roasting places like Amnesty International or the Peace Brigades on my site (what a relief for you, right) well when I am not doing that, I can just keep writing away, and you know how that just always seems to get worse and worse and worse (or better and better and better, depending on whether or not you are one of those worst opponents of mine, making all the judgments).
Yes, let me feel some empathy for those good and righteous people I will be roasting and roasting on this website (if need be). Isn't it scary to have faith. Well just think about how your heart will be crushed and broken to bits and just shattered by that terrible terrible experience. Because that is what I have planned for you good and righteous people. I plan to be the biggest cruelest hoax or something like that, that you ever had. Yes, a leap of faith. That could hurt. But its not like you have been running through fields of daisies all your life, now is it? So what the hell do you think you have to lose. So you would be sore for a while afterwards, but lets face it, your sore most of the time anyways. But never so sore as when you have a prophet of Yahweh after you, let me tell you.
And while I am at it, I could start roasting and roasting the news media on my site. Yah, that's right. Look, you faithless cowering twits. All you have to do to save your sorry sorry skins is put at the very least a link to that Yahweh site, apologetically if you want, or call it a novelty item. I don't care. And since I am very very poor if my site starts getting traffic from curiosity seekers, well maybe someone could mirror the site, or even donate some money to that Futurequest place, you know just to hurry up that clearing a path for Yahweh thing.
And you know what I am like when I get that road rage. But not this time. No this time its the prophet of Yahweh thing on my website. My God, some people will be getting roasted in the worst possible ways on this site. So Amnesty International, why don't you see what ‘prophet of Yahweh' really means and we'll see if I suddenly get lonely here, desperate for some company from the allegedly ruthless prick who never answers prayers and is supposed to be my God. Like I said, has anybody had a glass up to the wall in Saskatoon. Well, other than the poor sorry bastards that live here, I mean. God only knows how many stupid shits in my town have already given their souls to the lord jesus christ just because Yahweh showed up. (See what I mean). Well what is going to happen to this place. Let's all find out together shall we...